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[Tuesday
August 1st, 2006 at 2:23am
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i dropped my fucking cell phone in my glass of tea.
i was asked if the tea atleast tasted good.
it really did.
i wish it didnt, cause then i wouldnt have wanted to drink it and this never would have happened!
he says he only went to see her because he needed someone to talk to. about me. im sorry but i think there could have been a better choice. you dont go to someone to talk about who youre in love with, when they are completely inlove with you. use your fucking brain.
[EDIT: 430 am] i havent given up on him. i should. and i dont know why i havent. im making myself look like a complete idiot. i really am. but i still have hope for him. its in my gut. and we all know brooke listen to only herself. thats bull-headed me.
i'm going to have to "give up" on him if I want to be ok. and i would like that very much. he was my favorite.
its not giving up or running away at all. or even being a quitter as i've been told.
its about coming to the realization that i have false hope and i'm expecting so much out of nothing.
after everything he's said to me, i will always care. i will never hate him. i hope his life gets better. more than i hope for mine. it kills me i couldnt help more.
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[Sunday
July 30th, 2006 at 9:29am
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heart broken drunken nights.
beer funnels.
puking.
waking up to him calling me and me wanting to puke again.
Matt went to tallahassee... most likely to be with his ex girlfriend.
supposedly he almost purposed to her when they dated.
he even bought the ring.
now ask me if that bothers me.
it does.
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[Saturday
July 29th, 2006 at 6:09pm
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so last night matt came to my house drunk as fuck and went off on me in my driveway at 3 in the morning. i believe he used phrases such as " you only use me for a jack off" and "you are fucking up" and that i dont give a shit about him..... but he loves me? thats not love. im sorry i cant be with someone who makes me cry everyday. i gave everything i had to try and make things work with him.
so he left town. no one knows where he is and im pretty worried about him. i guess its ok to still care about a crazy person. but he needs help.
right now ive got some dip in my mouth. and im not really a good spitter. but im gonna get better at it.
LOOK AT MY LAYOUT. It was hard work but im back in the lj community. i need to vent.
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[Sunday
February 5th, 2006 at 10:25pm
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so here it is, the antlers are much darker but the flash distored it
it really didnt hurt as bad as i thought
i actually cant wait to get another one
his name's Jake. because obviously my moose looks like gay pride and thats exactly what jake gyllenhaal was in Broke Back Mountain
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[Saturday
July 23rd, 2005 at 12:05pm
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welp today I got my license
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